How was I supposed to know when I was 14 and got my first job that I should be saving up every single penny so I could be a stay at home mom? I had no idea what this new love would entail, I knew I would love my son before he was born because I loved him when he was pregnant. But no one can ever prepare you, explain to you, or let you truly know how this love is going to go. It's deep and any Momma's out there know it. I guess when they say you know it you do have a baby is really true....I didn't get it before but now I totally do.
Everyday I wake up and think "I want to be a stay at home Mom". If we could afford it we would do it for sure, but my husband works full time, is a full time student, and I work full time and we need to do all of it. We were crazy busy before baby. All my little side jobs are just not going to cut it financially. And I work in finance/accounting and I don't love my job, which makes it that much harder to wake up everyday and do it. My goal over the next year is to find something different, closer to home, and something I feel good about leaving J to go do. I need to feel like it's worth it if I am going to leave this house day after day.
Having a baby has left me somewhat conflicted on my blog. All I want to do is blog about is my little J! All I do is shop for this kid, think about this kid, spend my days hanging out with this kid. He is my life and I feel like I have slowly been leaking that onto here and my twitter. Do I turn into a Mommy Blogger? Who knows...we will just have to wait to see how it all unfolds. But I have also remained true to myself on this blog and just write about what I want to write about, whether it's about me, or my family. I do still love me some shopping and products so that has still come through on here which I am happy about.
This blog is about my life...the things I like, the things I do, and a lot of the time it's going to be this guy, because lets face it, I'm kind of obsessed.
Becoming a Mom has been by far the worlds most amazing and rewarding experience so far in life and I highly doubt anything will ever top it. And as I type this my little man is starting to wake up with his little acid reflux cough on the monitor.
I want to give a shout out to a blog I ADORE and that I have been reading lately as she is going through some of the very same experiences as me. Our little babies are right around the same age and her little girl is one precious little lady! Today's post was inspired by her, that it's ok to be a little vulnerable on these blogs, they are ours, and it's ok to be obsessed with your child and let the world know it! Meet Meg at O. is Me. Love her and her blog!
And two side notes for the day...1) Happy March 1st! I can't believe it is March and we are finally getting buried in snow up here in Boston!
2) This little man is 12 weeks old today. 12 weeks ago right now I was passed out recovering from c-section while little J was just a mere 6 hours old.
Little Man Then
And Little Man Now!